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hey ya'll =D

how's ur holiday? enjoyable?

well, the same goes to me XD

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-sigh- huh....school... it was awesome i got to meet back my frends but...

like usual, we need to learn, study, and finish tons of stupid, meaningless, useless, HOMEWORK

well, today we........oh yeah...i forgot... AYSHA DID'NT COME!!!!

so i cant use the word WE!!

i was alone that time..dun worry, i chat with my other frends also =D

Talking, chatting, babbling, spitting out crap stories, joking and more is my HOBBIES

especially at school

at first i thought we're going to talk about our holidays but no..........

we talk about something else. =D

like me, i was talking about anime, Yaoi vid that i watch, FMA and many more with my frend...

HAHA XD (FMA addicter)

it was nice meeting them back ;)

and yesterday was AWESOME!!
i meet back my FIRST LOVE

HAHA XD! got cha! like that would happen =)

but it was a pleasure chatting with him again =D

me and him was usually very CLOSE during our childhood times...

to tell you the truth..

I really, i MEAN REALLY like him...

THAT WAS LIKE 4 YEARS AGO!!

even now I like someone else already *cough*Ling*cough*edward*cough*roy*cough*

but when i saw him and talk to him yesterday.. i was so shy...

my heart cant stop pumping!!!

but still, i acted like nothing happen and just talk like normal...

it was LUCKY i manage to get over myself... XD

even i dun feel the same towards him already, when i started to say "Hi.." to him....

i feel like as if those vanished feelings came back.

even his my cousin...i just cant stop feeling happy and smile while with him...

whenever his parents came visit my family, i usually would come down from the stairs and look for him. when his there, i smile without knowing why..

but when his not there but just his mom,dad, and his other brothers...

there was this hidden frown concealed itself somewhere in my heart.

the distance between my age and his is 3 years.

OMG!!

why am i telling u this??!

HAHA XD i guess i just need someone express to...

hope he does'nt found out my blog's URL!!

or not im DEAD!!
to whoever read this, plzz keep it between us. ;)

it's something personal to me (yea right...you just expose it to hundreds of people)

HAHA XD

but i cant talk to him that long. he needed to go back early since he is staying in a dorm.

well, at least i got the chance to meet him ;D

we even message together at 12'o'clock

thats quite late right?

it was fun still ;)

he brought his phone to the dorm quietly.

his parent know that he brought it.

we message all kind of funny stuff

when i got the message from him last night,

i gave a surprise face to myself (lol)

FOR THE FIRST TIME HE ACTUALLY SEND ME A MESSAGE

OMG!!! i know its not a big deal but what can u say?

first time....;) hehe3

he is not that handsome like Zac Efron or what,

but the kindness he actually gave to me that what makes me attract to him =3

he never rude to me before ;)

whenever all my cousins gathered and meet each other again,

the first person i would really to talk with is him XDXDXDXD

i was kinda a shy person when i was small...

its rare for me to talk with my other cousins

so i was usually lonely...

but when my parents introduce his family to me,

i saw him... and i could see a melancholy feelings within his eye..

guess what? i ran away after that =D

i go and sit somewhere far away from other people.

suddenly, he sits beside me and we begin to talk.

that was our first met XD

he was the first person that make me enjoy talking with my 'own' cousin

he was also the first cousin that ever actually chat with me

haha ;D

huh....good memories...

hope i message with him again tonight =D

i want to smile with all my heart again ;)

a sincered smile that no one ever seen before ( a TRUE,SINCERED,CHASTE SMILE ILL EVER HAD)

hehe =)

well, lets stop here... it feels kinda good to finally express it

but still, I LOVE YOU R.E.L -sama!!!!!!!!!

see you later, dear readers!!!